I finally have a decent break. A whopping whole hour. I've had two tests and I've had to sing today for Master Class. But I still have one more test to go. Also, I almost had a breakdown in Master Class today. Thank God my friend made me laugh before I began to cry. That would have been even more embarrassing.
So I avoided my boyfriend for lunch. Even though I told him I wasn't mad at him, I'm still very hurt. I really just want to figure out on his own why I'm so upset. Why am I so upset? Maybe because he'd rather stick up for his mother than his girlfriend. Maybe because his mom is treating me like my opinions don't matter. I hate when people try to tell me who I am, what I like and what I'm going to do. Fuck you. I'm not your toy. I have a mind.
Against my heart's judgement, I'm not talking to my boyfriend until he confronts me. The sad thing is, I don't know if I can do that. He's the only person I have here at school to bitch to... even if I'm bitching about him. But, I need to stand strong on this for him to understand me. You'd think after almost 5 months of dating he'd have me figured out by now.
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